Fading Fast..

not only am i referring to my moral and determination to never harm again (its been around 5 months now!! Scars still very much visable though) …

but i’m referring to myself. I seem to watch life move past through a glass wall. Nobody can hear me, nobody seems to see me. It’s like, now that I’m not expressing myself as visably as I was before, I’ve lost a part of me. The part that seeked attention at all costs and found it.

its weird to be considered just another person. average weight, looks, good grades (but that never won friendship),

I still spend most of my time in bed.

I never want to fall in love again.

I desperately want to fall in love again, i just don’t think i’ll meet anyone who sees  me as more than just another face.

I found this song Thunder, brilliant line, “Your voice was the soundtrack to my summer” – Boys like Girls, made me think so much about how brilliant greece was, and how LONELY i am now.

hey, ho. no point in reaching for the razor blade, not like anyone will be seeing my legs anytime soon.

~ by chinaface on December 17, 2008.