About Men

I’m completely addicted to men emotionally retarded men.

Here’s a bit of a timeline with men i’ve slept with.. I’m going to ignore all those who i didnt go all the way with. mainly cause i lost count at around the age of 14.

AR – love of my life. jul04-sept06

- then we got a bit on-again-off-again during my gap year. culminating in me leaving the country for 5 months. returning to have him fuck me then break up with me a week before i started uni. sept06-sept07

- then we spent the next year sleeping together in random peroids of weekness.

- got back together last xmas, befor i cheated on him with a guy i was friends with. couldnt forgive him for the break up in 07. dec08-feb09.

NP – met thru my flatmate. he was lovely and i was rebounding. very intense. all ended when glandular fever made me ridiculously depressed and he bought me a huge bunch of flowers. i was far too emotional to cope with the whole thing, altho it was a bit of a shock to him. oct07-dec07

JE – first real dickhead. we saw each other every day for about 2months. he insists he never slept with anoyone else during that time, just seriosuly scared of commitment. probably a real real low point for me, drinking during the day and lots of cutting. jan08-mar08

AA – best friends since start of uni. he told me everything, like the fact he thought he’d been born wrong and wanted to wear girls clothes. kissing all the time since the start of uni. really hurt him by seeing JE, but he really hurt me by falling for KJ. anyways, slept together around valentines 08. then became increasingly in love with him til he broke things off for MP. slept with him a couple times after that. out of spite. oh yeah. and he hung himself last week. feb08-may08

DL – Ozzy man who i met in a bar and lived with for a week. very random. didnt really give a shit about each other, just nice to have some company. may08.

SA – second love of my life! met in greece on volunteering holiday, stayed for 5weeks, shared a tent. he was the first person to really accept my scars. tried to keep things going back in uk, but i’m a bit of a pillock and fucked it up. broke up with him less than a week after getting back to uni. june08-sept08.

DT - yummy, intelligent, emotional retard. met him in jan, got obsessed. then cheated on AR with him. from then on typical night in with him consists of far too much rum, wine and beer to remember if we did or didnt sleep together the night before. very angry with him atm. couple days ago he sent me a text “’should we admit that we like each other’ let’s wait. ‘how long?’ until at least one of us is dead, i love it so much! X” which leaves me in a bit of a predicament, because he summed up exactly what i like about us too. took me on holiday this summer, really fell for him, then i slept with SA again. for fucks sake. feb09-present.

SH – one night stand with possibly the most beautiful man i will ever meet. may09

 

i know there is one more. i’m just really struggling to remember who. i’ve remembered who – that would be my flatmates best mate. on new years. i went out with him to cheer him up and ended up sleeping with his best friend. well.done.me.